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i don't know how to tell you (and you wouldn't understand) by starcat
Fandoms: IT - Stephen King, IT (Movies - Muschietti)
22 Nov 2021
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It occurred to him slowly but clicked into place in an instant. An understanding and a realisation that had begun festering in his brain for so long that it had begun to make it’s home there; built with bricks made of an internalised self-loathing that sometimes felt like it was so heavy Richie could barely inhale. It was like a weird, fucked up puzzle from the universe that was being given to Richie in fragments. Piece by piece. And as the picture became clearer, the details less murky and more defined, Richie began to feel as if his life was over before it had truly begun. That everything he had hoped for was instantly torn from his grasp.
Richie knew a lot. He knew that without Buddy Holly, there would be no Beatles. He knew that modern ventriloquism started in nightclubs and originated as a religious practice. He knew that rabbits could not puke, the oldest ‘your mom’ joke was found on a 3,500-year-old Babylonian tablet, and that shellac was made from insect poop. And he knew, without a shadow of a doubt, that he was most certainly going to hell.
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Void | Depressed Todoroki x Midoriya by luxzine
Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia
09 Apr 2023
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Todoroki attempts to hide his eating disorder from his friends and from himself. Not wanting to accept that he needs help, Todoroki denies that anything is wrong with him and ends up sinking further into his depression. But what happens when Midoriya begins to notice the signs of Todoroki's eating disorder?
[Completed 03/31/23.]
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An ache started to settle inside Will's chest, burrowing deep between his heart and ribs.
Mike let go of the hug, stepping back a few inches and kissing the sobriety chip, "For you. For Nora."
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Mike and Will navigate married life, struggling through Mike’s sobriety and being on the brink of divorce.
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The Drug Awareness Talk by That_1_fangirl456
Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia (Anime & Manga)
22 Jun 2026
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Present Mic has been clean for eleven years. When he’s asked to teach Class 1-A about addiction, he decides to tell the truth.
The truth is complicated.
Especially when Bakugou Katsuki shows up at his office asking for help.
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this is so good wtf im gettin inspired
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a tiny white pill by orphan_account
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Feb 2026
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Shane Hollander has a 487-game ironman streak. He doesn't miss games. He doesn't miss practices. He doesn't lie to the people he loves.
Then a hit takes everything, and a small white pill gives it back. Gives back the ability to exist without wanting to crawl out of his own skin. The ability to pick up the phone when Ilya calls and sound like a person.
The first pill is prescribed. The second is justified. The tenth is necessary. The ones after that are none of your business.
He's not an addict.
He's managing.
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- Part 1 of it doesn't un-happen
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Dear Theo, I thought you could save me (no one can) by buddiecanon_2026
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
30 Jun 2026
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Six months after fostering Theo, Buck gets a knock at his door. The foster care system has finally found a suitable forever family for Theo. Buck knew this day would come. He knew it wasn't going to last. He knew he was never going to be truly suitable. So why did it hurt so much?
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After Theo leaves Buck loses himself, and no one can stop it. Or can they?
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Theo leaves buck
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They're steadily climbing the table of the Prem, Jamie's playing the best football of his life, things would be GREAT, except Roy won't stop putting his hands on him and his dad's gonna start drinking again any minute now. So if Jamie's a little tense, it's not his fault.
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That missing piece by Yaeti
Fandoms: 鬼滅の刃 | Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba (Anime), 鬼滅の刃 | Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba (Manga)
04 Jan 2025
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"If I buy him a drink can he stay?" Sanemi asked, approaching the counter. The barista's expression softened, nodding curtly. "What do you want to drink?"
The man's eyes widened in surprise, then relief. "A... a hot tea, please," he stuttered, his voice shaking almost as much as his body.
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Rich Sanemi meats broke Giyuu and invites him to live with him. (There's more to Giyuu that Sanemi thinks)
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He was going to watch her find the two seconds of nothingness.
And he was going to want it. He was going to need it.
He was tired of fighting. He was so unbelievably tired of being strong, of being good, of taking the punishment and hoping that someone, someday, would decide he was worthy of forgiveness, of love.
Bobby didn't want him back at the 118. Eddie wouldn't look at him. His parents had never loved him.
I wish I could say I feel nothing, Buck thought, a tear finally slipping through his fingers and dropping onto his jeans. But I feel everything.
He sat in the darkness of the loft, listening to the shower run, waiting for the ticking clock to strike zero.
He was going to relapse tonight. He had already made the choice. Now, it was just a matter of waiting for the moment to arrive.
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Buck has been sober for six years, during the lawsuit, Buck relapses.
😭🥹💔💊
[You don't need to watch Euphoria to read this, based in the 911 universe, will have enough context about Rue to understand.]
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- Part 6 of Lawsuit Fics
- Part 4 of Crossover Fics
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Kurloz Makara hates this newly made universe. He feels like the newly-made universe hates him, too. Which is probably why he got himself stuck inside a food-storage block in the first place.
Well, it's better than the trees.
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- Part 1 of Void
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“You could see drinking directly from the source akin to drinking wine", Seonghwa explained. "Most will have a glass here and there, some even every weekend, but it is generally frowned upon to overindulge.”
“And how about you?”
“Me?”
Hongjoong swallowed.
“Are you… fond of a glass of wine?”
Or: Ex-drug addict Hongjoong will do whatever it takes to not let himself or the people he loves fall back into the life they worked hard to escape from.
Vampire Seonghwa has one rule: he does not drink from humans anymore.
They are good at breaking down each other's resolves.
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The Pittfest shooting wasn't easy on anyone, and after failing to save Leah, Robby spirals until he relapses into a bad habit. Thankfully, Jack is there to help keep Robby from sinking too deep in his dark feelings.
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Comfortably Numb by Dnote147
Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia
09 May 2019
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~Just have to get through today.~
That's what crosses my mind on a daily basis; almost like a mantra.
~Just get through today.~
Sometimes, it would almost sound like a melody, playing on a constant loop. If it weren't for the underlying motive for this internal repetition, I would almost find it hilarious.
Keyword: Almost.
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- Part 1 of Agro Pom-Pom & Smol Green Bean
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His feet were moving before his brain had fully processed everything, and he was throwing himself down beside the backliner. There was nothing that could knock Jean down hard enough that he would not get back up again. He would only stay down if he couldn’t get back up.
Jean was pale, his pained breaths shallow.
“Show me what hurts,” Jeremy spoke as calmly as he could, but something wasn’t right. An eerie feeling hummed across his skin. He threw off his gloves and his helmet.
“I can’t, I can’t,” Jean was gasping over and over. His eyes were wide beneath the bars of his mask, gaze flickering back and forth up and down in a frantic pattern.
“What? You can’t what?” Jeremy’s hands hovered just above him, looking for the wound, the blood to staunch, something, anything he could do to help. He thought about stripping Jean of his gear, but thought better of it, not knowing where or what the injury was. A slow stream of blood poured from his nose. What was wrong? Why wouldn’t Jean just show him what was wrong? “What hurts?”
Jean’s eyes locked with Jeremy’s, grey and wide and terrified.
“I can’t feel anything.” It sounded like he was choking.
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Jessalyn’s ChosenSoldier Fics by JessalynMichele
Fandom Clear Minds, Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling, Marvel, Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
23 Jun 2026
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ALL of these crossovers are so freaking amazing. obsessed with this couple and papa stark/son harry
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The whole pack by Anonymous
Fandoms: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, Iron Man (Movies)
21 Jan 2026
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He’d dream of the cold sweat of a glass, the amber depth of a good bourbon, and wake with his mouth parched and his heart hammering a traitorous rhythm.
He was trying to be good. He was building something fragile with the kid. Peter saw the rehab not as a finish line but as a foundational stone. As a new, fresh start. Tony saw it as a cliff edge. The problem wasn’t the wanting, he decided. The problem was fearing the want. That caused his thoughts to spiral.
Howard’s lesson, stripped of its malice, was sound. You had to look the monster in the eye. You had to swallow it whole to prove you could.
He announced his plan to the empty room. “I’m going on a bender.”
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- Part 2 of Tony’s relapses
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Having caught Tony right after a recent alcohol binge, Pepper has had enough. She can accept relapses but she draws the line right here and right now! Her ultimatum for Tony is pretty straightforward.
“Forty-eight hours. No alcohol. Peter is here. You will not fail him.”
Will Tony be able to fight his desperation for just one more drink? Or will he cave and disappoint not only Pepper but also himself.
What about the secret third option though?
Tony wouldn’t be Tony if his brain wouldn’t be able to come up with a loophole!
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A very desperate alcoholic!Tony Stark is willing to take drastic measures to get what he wants and not break his promise.
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- Part 3 of Tony’s relapses
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Kim realizes Harry’s afraid of touching and being touched. So Kim starts, very slowly, enacting his plan to make the detective more comfortable with being touched. He starts small. A hand on Harry’s shoulder when he’s done well, or when he needs to be bolstered. He leans into him to whisper confidentially into his ear. Once, the detective has mustard on his shirt, and Kim wets his handkerchief and dabs at it while the man stiffens and his face goes scarlet. He allows his hand to brush Harry’s when they play Suzerainty, handing off the die. But Harry doesn’t touch Kim. No, the detective keeps his hands to himself.
And then in May Harry touches him of his own volition.
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Ness doesn’t cry when Kaiser hurts him,
He cries when Kaiser trys to leave.
Because at least whenever he is hurt, he knows hes still needed.
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AMAZING beginning, then kind of fell off… and the t he plot twist??????? Great read